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Christmas.

Updated: Jan 9

I would like to wish everyone a merry Christmas. I know that this weeks blog was supposed to be about Luke and his birth, but I thought that due to Christmas I wouldn't put such a depressive blog up.


This week has been good, we actually went to Disney land (which was amazing btw, even without children) and are now spending our Christmas with my husbands family. I miss our baby every day, especially at Christmas, Luke would be in my tummy waiting to be born, to spend 2024 with us. But he is not. So me and my husband are now in Wetherspoons having a drink, not that it'll help with our grief, but because we want too. I wish we could've spent this Christmas pregnant, or with our baby. We have to make with what we have, and so, we are in the pub, Christmas Eve, with my husbands friends having a Christmas drink.


I send love and light to everyone who has lost their baby, we remember them at this time of year and always. I love you all xx


To Luke


I miss you everyday

Every gurgle of my tummy.

Every reminder I am your Mummy.

I miss you everyday.

Every song I hear.

Every feather that reminds me you are near.

I miss you everyday,

Father Christmas will come to you,

Even though you've gone too soon,

I miss you everyday.



I miss him more than words can say, I wish to god that this cannot be real, that he would bring him back to us.


Merry Christmas my loves, I hope you are well and that you too, will enjoy Christmas without our babies even though it will be hard xx

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